Lose ... 
"Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred ... How could we?" He got into our lives and we seek and embrace? What has happened to us? When astray our way?. We are consumed by the shadows, completely engulfed by darkness. That darkness does it have a name? "Your name?"
Whatever happens, happens for a reason ... for better or for worse ... perhaps because I know you will read this is why I'm writing ...
few days ago I made the biggest mistake of my life, and was beating me for something that never interested me ... funny, but it was a way out of everything that was happening at that moment and helped me see things clearly ...
Someone, perhaps the best one I have now in my life, I taught myself someone who had never known someone who could get what they propose, one which he said was great and had helped no one had ever Indeed ... funny, because at that moment I felt like the worst person in the world, a negligible dark, however he never saw me, then something made me wonder if at some point was that I thought was, that being so despicable ...
realized that I can be many things, have thousands of defects and realized that it does not make me a worse person, is something that is part of my life and I have to learn to live ... Although now I understand I do not live for me, because long ago I stopped wanting to live for me, I live for others, and it is they who, for better or for worse, will be marking my direction ...
Yes, now I'm lost, I'm sad and tired, I miss something that encourages me to continue, and that something is you, and like you, I'm counting the days, for a short while to see you again, and do you most need now, see you, sleep with you on that wooden attic has saved so many secrets, laughing on the outside and inside, because when I'm with you, my soul smiles without realizing it, because you are that person that makes you want to be better, day by day want to make all my dreams, you're the person getting me to believe that I am worth it even if not true, you are the master of my fate, the captain of my soul, you know, as I desire to reawaken ... you ...
few days ago I lost someone, someone who never wanted to lose, someone who taught me to see world differently, someone who may never know what it meant and means in my life, I had never lost someone ...
was perhaps at that moment that I discovered something that caught my attention, and it is to lose something that is important to you makes you appreciate the things that still preserved, but also learned something more important, perhaps most importantly, and we are also what we have lost ...
Life ... Reemerging 
"Somebody told me That this is the place WHERE Everything's better and everything's safe"
Why smile at life if deep down I made a shit? Few days I've been thinking a lot, maybe too much at all events, for better or for worse, is changing my life ...
Comes time to make decisions, think about the future, but I now want to think about the future, I am not prepared to live ...
Now I'm much better than a few weeks ago, but still I feel like hugging my pillow incessant and cover these crystals gently flowing from my eyes red ...
need to leave here, perhaps far from all this may be a better person, you can stop for a minute of hating myself ...
Someone showed me that was not the right way my life was taking, and also made me see something in me that really worth it, but continued night after night thinking about it and looking at me the mirror and still can not recognize that person from speaking ...
routine again, this is no longer the same as it was, I miss those afternoons a few weeks ago, in my body, sad on the inside laughing out loud for something that does not even matter much, but now it is time to change, to stop being that I've always been, to begin to be what they dreamed to be, I wanted to be ...
may never get or perhaps find out a lot sooner than we imagine ... just know that I have to trust me and know I'm not what many believe, know that I can achieve anything if I put my mind to know that out there, there is a world worth be seen, a life worth living ...
... Exhausting 
From these walls everything looks different ... funny, but sometimes in the most unexpected person, it makes a visit to make you see the way your life is taking is not what it should be ...
When you came, I saw in your face a straight face and disappointed me ... You helped me up, took me to that dark place where they say that cure people, but what really hurts me I do not think there can be cured ...
You were the reason why I decided to leave it because you showed me that it might not be so bad, so dark so perverse, so deprorable, as I thought ...
I looked, I did see reality, you took me in front of a mirror, to see my reflection, that of the person who said it was amazing, you never failed, had always worried about you, that although mistakes, always been able to learn from them and to apologize ... taught me that side of me did not know, I never thought to have ...
few weeks ago that started this state of self-destruction in my life completely lost its meaning ... where suddenly I was snorting coke and sleeping with a guy I've never had a real conversation and that's when you realize that something is wrong, and you need the support of the people you love and you thought you wanted ... is where you see that not everything is as it seems, people disappoint you too you, not only you to them ...
instead, you were my great surprise, my greatest support, my shoulder to mourn, my out of this dark maze ... it was completed to seek the destruction of myself ... I'm not so bad, I'm not what they want to be, I'm not that make me be me, and I decided to be born again, but feel that pain, stop believing in people who have shown me that believing in them not worth it ...
is over, I'm tired of dry my tears minute after minute, I'm tired of feeling weak, vulnerable, sad, dull ... I'm tired of making me feel like shit, it was completed, no more ...
Here I am, with renewed energy, fresh out of that place full of worn souls of dead bodies in search of a breath more, people running back and forth with hope in their eyes, with people dressed as doctors willing to restore hope to people like me ...
Thank you to each and every one of you who do this post today is dedicated to you ... Isius, Koldo father, Caricaturita, Palu, Leonor50, luz_blanca ... In short, everyone, and especially, you, you know who you are because without you knowing it, I've brought back to life ...
last breath ... 
wake by your side, drowsy, dizzy ... I see your body lying very close to me, sleeping soundly, oblivious to the cold embrace us again and again, living intensely every minute ... Repels
modesty and all those fears that flooded me so far ... I live intensely these days, might be the last of my life ...
I love you, I could not deny it if I wanted ... Looking into your eyes I know you're able to see ... but I know you see my fear, because I was always afraid of love because I've always wanted in a way that scared me, now I have you in my arms, but that's not enough, the pain persists ...
may never understand us being together, not being separated, because when I'm with you, in my mind is still set your image ...
I need you, I've always needed, since the first day I saw you and now you're beside me, but you're taking the life of me ...
kiss your neck, I taste your body inch by inch, you're mine, all mine ... I'm yours, I belong, that always will be ...
I play, follow you wherever you go, walking by your side, draining the last breath ...
bleed the heart ... 
You, you always in my thoughts, my life, I am in my minutes, just thinking about that on Friday I see a butterfly in your stomach grows by the hour, making feel alive for a brief moment ... let me
these white powders, which erases the memory, that transported me to nirvana, that makes me forget all those fairy dust that gives me that together we sip and taste as we stared ...
Perhaps this is not the way to liberation, perhaps put me in swampy, but you forget my pains ... we smoked together half cigars, these flavored cigars that make a feel good, and so one day, the mist surrounds me hallucinations, while river incessantly without really knowing why ...
I'm with you, I have by your side, give me a simple and easy flight, roll up a ticket, and sip your life ... I felt soft as the powder deep into me, always with your eyes fixed on mine ...
Last night I was sick, but I came home with a smile as your lips touched my fingers and you held my head, helped me stay on my feet ... I
stake my life over and over time, and just at the wrong time, you appear out of nowhere, like an inner voice, showing a way out of this darkness, bringing light through the fog that shot through my nose ...
Meanwhile, I'll follow you, groping , blindly, toward the darker path than mine, so that both get out of here, with or without life, but together ...
both have problems, the two fled from them, we both want in silence, both slept on a mattress at ground level ... together, embraced as our hearts beat the same beat, the rhythm of death, the destruction of our souls aching ...
Living next to you this world of destruction seems much easier, I needed you, and you showed up, holding out a hand through the maze, showing the way to death, that you travel you long ago, and now, I walk with you ...
Our bodies, finally found a way to reach that end ... my end is you, and yours, is with me ... Soon we
smoke die of loneliness embracing, sitting on the mattress where nightly nap, enrolled into each other, sweating tears , crying blood, humbling one to the other, drying our tears, supporting your shoulder on my back, bleeding heart ... kiss kiss after
