Tuesday, April 14, 2009

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... Exhausting



From these walls everything looks different ... funny, but sometimes in the most unexpected person, it makes a visit to make you see the way your life is taking is not what it should be ...

When you came, I saw in your face a straight face and disappointed me ... You helped me up, took me to that dark place where they say that cure people, but what really hurts me I do not think there can be cured ...

You were the reason why I decided to leave it because you showed me that it might not be so bad, so dark so perverse, so deprorable, as I thought ...

I looked, I did see reality, you took me in front of a mirror, to see my reflection, that of the person who said it was amazing, you never failed, had always worried about you, that although mistakes, always been able to learn from them and to apologize ... taught me that side of me did not know, I never thought to have ...

few weeks ago that started this state of self-destruction in my life completely lost its meaning ... where suddenly I was snorting coke and sleeping with a guy I've never had a real conversation and that's when you realize that something is wrong, and you need the support of the people you love and you thought you wanted ... is where you see that not everything is as it seems, people disappoint you too you, not only you to them ...

instead, you were my great surprise, my greatest support, my shoulder to mourn, my out of this dark maze ... it was completed to seek the destruction of myself ... I'm not so bad, I'm not what they want to be, I'm not that make me be me, and I decided to be born again, but feel that pain, stop believing in people who have shown me that believing in them not worth it ...

is over, I'm tired of dry my tears minute after minute, I'm tired of feeling weak, vulnerable, sad, dull ... I'm tired of making me feel like shit, it was completed, no more ...

Here I am, with renewed energy, fresh out of that place full of worn souls of dead bodies in search of a breath more, people running back and forth with hope in their eyes, with people dressed as doctors willing to restore hope to people like me ...

Thank you to each and every one of you who do this post today is dedicated to you ... Isius, Koldo father, Caricaturita, Palu, Leonor50, luz_blanca ... In short, everyone, and especially, you, you know who you are because without you knowing it, I've brought back to life ...

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