I think the first was Manolo. We were at school and had been dating a few months. It was the time pre facebook, pre mobile phones, so communication is limited to the phone and see each other during recess or after school. He graduated that year-end, but still had something. I last saw him a day before his birthday, which by a twist of fate is February 14, and just not talk to me then disappear dees was as simple as stop answering the phone and not appear in the obvious places. I found many years later and I think we never talked about why it ended that way with me, with the old technique of disappearance.
When I was in college and I finally got that John Paul was actually my boyfriend, I called a home Dec. 24 to ask if you would see that night and told me I was only honeymoon. I guess one of my questions, as well as WHAT? Why was not finished with me for good? Why did you use just the silence and distance to give everything over? "It was so unimportant to you to tell me something I have to finish as it looks to you because I'm getting married?
It has happened other times, now I'm cured a little scary, but it still hurts this way not to make things clear. I do not want an exhaustive list of individuals who one day to another just stopped answering the phone and ignored emails and messages. I wonder why they can not be direct and tell one that they are no longer interested in talking to him. If even a couple of days ago wanted to date you, why do not you say no? I've been doing a test of consciousness in recent days to see if I've ever done that to someone and not remember a single case (usually the ignored me) so if I ever did, sorry.
To me the words are very important, I hate that way of being stingy with them. To me close cycles is vital, I hate the way to end a relationship without saying. These sands stirred last week because someone just left to answer and made me wonder again if I do not deserve an explanation, a worthy end.
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